Lost

"It is in the times that you are down that you'll know who is willing to stay with you throughout and is not going to leave you alone to weep. "

They say that losing something or someone is the worst feeling in the world. Be it a lover, a family, a friend, or simply a thing that is very important to you. All our life we are wanting to gain something and losing it is just not the way that we want for our life.

When something is lost to you, what do you do? Move on? Sure. Depend on time to ease the pain you felt? Yes, I am sure that the feeling will not be as overwhelming as the first time the lost has happened to you.

But what if the same loss happened to you for the second time?

You manged to help your self on your first loss, you did everything you could just to make everything alright despite the weakness in you. You became strong for yourself. Then, because of your strong will to fight, the unthinkable happened. Everything became fine. You were back to normal again.

Then, the second loss happened. It's like going back to the overwhelming days of problems that you already gotten over with. You start again from scratch, squeezing your mind to find another set of solutions and it just suck. Who wants to go back to their dark days anyway? Nobody.

The good thing about loss/ problems is that, you'll know who will stick with you and will not leave you. And it just feels good to know that they are there for you no matter what. Those people who will never judge you and will still accept you after seeing you on your weakest, your imperfections.

We might grieve when something is lost to us but this is the happy part: when we let time work for us, the feeling is not as overwhelming as the first time you experience that loss. Somehow, time lessens the burden we feel inside us and it will let us think clearly and it can help us manage our emotions more. We can use that for finding solutions to our problems and to make ourselves whole again.

Getting over with dark days is not easy. It is really helpful that we have good and trustworthy people around us that will become our allies in facing the tragedies in the world. After all, no man is an island, which is very true no matter how stereotype the line is.

I believe in the saying that "we can learn to be strong if being strong is the only choice we got."

And I thank the people around me who are my allies.

April

Hello world! Look who's back?

Okay, I admit, I couldn't even maintain a blog. I really want to but I couldn't I hope the next time I try, I will succeed. So what's up with me?

You know, April is a great month because I don't have summer classes, as in never, since I became college. The sad thing about April for me is... okay here it is: I evaluated myself for the month of April and I didn't like what the result was. Haha! I was more of a bum! What the...

Okay, I'll stop with that. Did you know that I finished Stephenie Meyer's Twilight saga? I did that for two weeks, reading the three books, was kinda slow for a not so dedicated reader. Haha!! As for the first book, that was done last semestral break. I think it also took me two weeks to finish that one. :D

I also continued my Prison Break addiction and I finished watching the three seasons and now I have my eyes on the season 4. If Michael Scofield was real, then he's the one I want to marry! Haha! I love everything about his character. He was a genius and because of that, he was able to break in not one but two penitentiaries, and if things didn't go well and his plans were not met, he could still manage to be calm and was able to say "just have a little faith." Awwww! I really like him. Michael Scofield is my favorite hero. Haha! Okay, Superman, you are next to him, don't worry! :D

I didn't finish watching Prison Break season four because that was the last season and I feel like if I continue watching, I'll also be nearing to its end and I don't want that to happen. That's my favorite show. *tears* Soooooo... I put my attention into watching Gossip Girl instead and I really love the story and characters! It's different from Prison Break obviously, and I love them both in different ways! Kristen Bell's voice is very chic. Haha! And sometimes, can be very b*tchy! :p Plus, I can really relate to some of the situations there. They are so very teen ager. Haha! I am kinda hooked to it...

I am planning to watch House after I finished the shows that I am currently very busy about. Looks like I need to give myself some knowledge about these kinds of entertainment. Hahaha! I thought watching series was not fun at all. Thanks to Prison Break because it awakened me! LOL.

Hello hello, 32 minutes ago, it was April, now it's May! Time flies really fast... I don't know if I'll be happy with that thought. Ugh.

Hey, adding to my achievement of the books that I was able to read, here's The Devil and Miss Prym. Thanks to my ever nice and favorite cousin, for lending me that book. Whew, a Coelho book, definitely it's a good book. And good news! I was able to grasp its concept, unlike his other books, which were kinda complicated to me. Haha! Yes, everybody will understand that book, I hope. :D

Mmm, you know what? I like the way Serena and Blair call each other by the first letter of their names. Like "Hi S it's me B!". Cool!!! Hi S it's me J, and I love you! LOL! Watcha think? :D

Btw, I was upset because of a thing that I didn't get. I thought it was the best for me, so I tried and did all that I could just to get it. Then the bad news came. I was really down and doubted myself not for days but for weeks! Look at how bad I was to myself!!! Good thing I was able to overcome it, with the help from other people, maybe, but I'll congratulate myself more. LOL. Thank you myself because you've became strong and you've managed to regain yourself back! You deserve a big hug from me! Stay courageous and you'll be rewarded! :)

Hmmmm. What else? Okay, now I am happy for blogging again and for sharing my thoughts but I think I missed something to share, and I want to shout it out but that will just make me as crazy as Sisa. LOL... So here it is: I miss you. A lot. Especially when you were solo.

Ugh. A blog that turned corny in the end. LOL.

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