Time check: 1:38a.m, still awake and kickin'!
Now I realize the essence of "absence".
You take for granted the things that you ALWAYS see, feel, smell, touch, hear, and whatever senses you have there. You take for granted things that is always around you, and when they are gone, that is when you start to wonder.. "Where did they go, where are they?".
You miss them because of their absence. And now, you want them BACK. You are lucky if you get them back, and when things turn out as it is again, you will start taking them for granted again and again. The cycle goes on and on. Will you ever learn? It depends.
If there is no absence, the things you have will just be plain things, without realizing their own value.
Now, I am starting to understand more the meaning of "absence".
But still, every absence leaves me bleak.
Anyway, this issue bothers me for a week now. He misunderstood me. The fact that I am not talking to him that much and just ignoring his teases. The hell, what does he want me to do? Tolerate him? No, I will not. I don't like to be teased a lot because I easily get irritated. He is always like that. He's 20 or 21 years old now, I am not sure, but he still acts like a child!!! He's a lot more sensitive than I am! What the! And now they say that he's mad at me just because I always ignore him!!! He told them that when he was drunk one week ago. He was busy making trouble as he spit out our names, and cursed us one by one. Alright, alright, I know, I know that he's older than me and he should be responding to things more maturely than I am, but when you look at it, it is I who knows very well than him and should give way and adjust. We grew on different environments. We don't have the same parents. His parents are good persons. He has two other siblings, which are also good persons. He, naturally, is a good person. But not every home is a perfect one. They too are experiencing problems in their family and these problems, as he grew older, build up and created a psychological effect on him. His father aside from being a disciplinarian is aloof. He is not close to his two other siblings. He is an introvert who doesn't tell what he really wants even after asking him. I am not saying that I am a perfect person with no problems on my family or what.. It's just that.. my point is, it is I who should understand more. I shouldn't be in rage for knowing that he is mad at me only because of his sensitivity. It is I who needs to be more open minded. It is I who must act as an older person. It is I who must help to make him feel that he is loved and he is as important as his two other siblings. I must make a move and not take for granted this opportunity to aid in changing the life of one person. My cousin.
What the heck. Now, where do I start? Start from scratch? LOL? I think I'll be reaching out to him very soon. It should be planned. I now have a plan. I just need some bucks in order to complete it. Now I find myself funny for needing some bucks in order to furnish the misunderstandings between me and my cousin. :)
By the way, there's more nuisance in the air other than my cuz. But I choose not to mind IT. For now.
Oooh.. it's past 3 am.
Hello weekend!!!!
Now I realize the essence of "absence".
You take for granted the things that you ALWAYS see, feel, smell, touch, hear, and whatever senses you have there. You take for granted things that is always around you, and when they are gone, that is when you start to wonder.. "Where did they go, where are they?".
You miss them because of their absence. And now, you want them BACK. You are lucky if you get them back, and when things turn out as it is again, you will start taking them for granted again and again. The cycle goes on and on. Will you ever learn? It depends.
If there is no absence, the things you have will just be plain things, without realizing their own value.
Now, I am starting to understand more the meaning of "absence".
But still, every absence leaves me bleak.
Anyway, this issue bothers me for a week now. He misunderstood me. The fact that I am not talking to him that much and just ignoring his teases. The hell, what does he want me to do? Tolerate him? No, I will not. I don't like to be teased a lot because I easily get irritated. He is always like that. He's 20 or 21 years old now, I am not sure, but he still acts like a child!!! He's a lot more sensitive than I am! What the! And now they say that he's mad at me just because I always ignore him!!! He told them that when he was drunk one week ago. He was busy making trouble as he spit out our names, and cursed us one by one. Alright, alright, I know, I know that he's older than me and he should be responding to things more maturely than I am, but when you look at it, it is I who knows very well than him and should give way and adjust. We grew on different environments. We don't have the same parents. His parents are good persons. He has two other siblings, which are also good persons. He, naturally, is a good person. But not every home is a perfect one. They too are experiencing problems in their family and these problems, as he grew older, build up and created a psychological effect on him. His father aside from being a disciplinarian is aloof. He is not close to his two other siblings. He is an introvert who doesn't tell what he really wants even after asking him. I am not saying that I am a perfect person with no problems on my family or what.. It's just that.. my point is, it is I who should understand more. I shouldn't be in rage for knowing that he is mad at me only because of his sensitivity. It is I who needs to be more open minded. It is I who must act as an older person. It is I who must help to make him feel that he is loved and he is as important as his two other siblings. I must make a move and not take for granted this opportunity to aid in changing the life of one person. My cousin.
What the heck. Now, where do I start? Start from scratch? LOL? I think I'll be reaching out to him very soon. It should be planned. I now have a plan. I just need some bucks in order to complete it. Now I find myself funny for needing some bucks in order to furnish the misunderstandings between me and my cousin. :)
By the way, there's more nuisance in the air other than my cuz. But I choose not to mind IT. For now.
Oooh.. it's past 3 am.
Hello weekend!!!!
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